Well, until this week I was totally fine not being pregnant.
Haha, just kidding.
But what I mean is, until this week, not being pregnant but seeing pregnancy announcements / pregnancy complaints on facebook didn’t bother me. But now? Now, I am starting to get that old time feeling back.
Everyone is pregnant. Again. People with kids my kids’ age are pregnant with number 2 (so far none of my twin mom friends in my moms group are pregnant and I don’t know that any of them are even interested in a 3rd). It seems like there is a steady stream of facebook pregnancy announcements the last couple of weeks. And one of my online friends I’ve known for about 10 years is on her 6th full term pregnancy and complaining like it’s her first, and “UGH I HATE BEING PREGNANT” and it is making me a little sad inside.
I am happy I got my period for the 3rd time in a row. This time, when it ends, I will go back to the mikvah. I meant to start doing that a long time ago but it got away from me. But I feel like I won’t get pregnant again unless I am going to the mikvah (you all know I am superstitious).
Last time I got pregnant after going to the mikvah and praying for a bunch of you ladies who actually ended up getting pregnant at exactly the same time and now our kids are all the same age You might not know I prayed for you but I did, there is supposed to be some special magic mojo and I can say my anecdotal evidence only strengthened my belief in it.
But despite all of that, the pregnancy announcements are starting to sting a little bit. Just a little. Because I know we aren’t actively trying still. I’m not temping (am considering it though) and I’m not really doing the OPKs. We’re just trying to let it happen as it will, and I am honestly fine with it. And I am honestly fine with not being pregnant right now because I am settling in after a big transition (moving into a house, moving into a new city, making new friends, figuring out car culture again from a parent perspective).
It doesn’t take that little sting away. That little sting of, this person is announcing it so early no way did they have trouble. This person is literally pregnant every single year and complains about it, but it is definitely preventable if you don’t want to do it every year …
Whatever, whatever. Let it slide off my back. I am making my life with my husband and kids, and loving it, and loving my two who are only getting cuter and more lovable every day. I want a herd of children someday, and there is good reason to believe that it will happen, so I am trying to be patient.